One beautiful April morning, on a narrow side street in Tokyo's
fashionable Harujuku neighborhood, I walked past the 100% perfect
girl.
Tell you the truth, she's not that good-looking. She doesn't stand
out in any way. Her clothes are nothing special. The back of her
hair is still bent out of shape from sleep. She isn't young, either
- must be near thirty, not even close to a "girl," properly
speaking. But still, I know from fifty yards away: She's the 100%
perfect girl for me. The moment I see her, there's a rumbling in
my chest, and my mouth is as dry as a desert.
Maybe you have your own particular favorite type of girl - one with
slim ankles, say, or big eyes, or graceful fingers, or you're drawn
for no good reason to girls who take their time with every meal.
I have my own preferences, of course. Sometimes in a restaurant
I'll catch myself staring at the girl at the next table to mine
because I like the shape of her nose.
But no one can insist that his 100% perfect girl correspond to some
preconceived type. Much as I like noses, I can't recall the shape
of hers - or even if she had one. All I can remember for sure is
that she was no great beauty. It's weird.
"Yesterday on the street I passed the 100% girl," I tell
someone.
"Yeah?" he says. "Good-looking?"
"Not really."
"Your favorite type, then?"
"I don't know. I can't seem to remember anything about her
- the shape of her eyes or the size of her breasts."
"Strange."
"Yeah. Strange."
"So anyhow," he says, already bored, "what did you
do? Talk to her? Follow her?"
"Nah. Just passed her on the street."
She's walking east to west, and I west to east. It's a really nice
April morning.
Wish I could talk to her. Half an hour would be plenty: just ask
her about herself, tell her about myself, and - what I'd really
like to do - explain to her the complexities of fate that have led
to our passing each other on a side street in Harajuku on a beautiful
April morning in 1981. This was something sure to be crammed full
of warm secrets, like an antique clock build when peace filled the
world.
After talking, we'd have lunch somewhere, maybe see a Woody Allen
movie, stop by a hotel bar for cocktails. With any kind of luck,
we might end up in bed.
Potentiality knocks on the door of my heart.
Now the distance between us has narrowed to fifteen yards.
How can I approach her? What should I say?
"Good morning, miss. Do you think you could spare half an hour
for a little conversation?"
Ridiculous. I'd sound like an insurance salesman.
"Pardon me, but would you happen to know if there is an all-night
cleaners in the neighborhood?"
No, this is just as ridiculous. I'm not carrying any laundry, for
one thing. Who's going to buy a line like that?
Maybe the simple truth would do. "Good morning. You are the
100% perfect girl for me."
No, she wouldn't believe it. Or even if she did, she might not want
to talk to me. Sorry, she could say, I might be the 100% perfect
girl for you, but you're not the 100% boy for me. It could happen.
And if I found myself in that situation, I'd probably go to pieces.
I'd never recover from the shock. I'm thirty-two, and that's what
growing older is all about.
We pass in front of a flower shop. A small, warm air mass touches
my skin. The asphalt is damp, and I catch the scent of roses. I
can't bring myself to speak to her. She wears a white sweater, and
in her right hand she holds a crisp white envelope lacking only
a stamp. So: She's written somebody a letter, maybe spent the whole
night writing, to judge from the sleepy look in her eyes. The envelope
could contain every secret she's ever had.
I take a few more strides and turn: She's lost in the crowd.
Now, of course, I know exactly what I should have said to her. It
would have been a long speech, though, far too long for me to have
delivered it properly. The ideas I come up with are never very practical.
Oh, well. It would have started "Once upon a time" and
ended "A sad story, don't you think?"
Once upon a time, there lived a boy and a girl. The boy was eighteen
and the girl sixteen. He was not unusually handsome, and she was
not especially beautiful. They were just an ordinary lonely boy
and an ordinary lonely girl, like all the others. But they believed
with their whole hearts that somewhere in the world there lived
the 100% perfect boy and the 100% perfect girl for them. Yes, they
believed in a miracle. And that miracle actually happened.
One day the two came upon each other on the corner of a street.
"This is amazing," he said. "I've been looking for
you all my life. You may not believe this, but you're the 100% perfect
girl for me."
"And you," she said to him, "are the 100% perfect
boy for me, exactly as I'd pictured you in every detail. It's like
a dream."
They sat on a park bench, held hands, and told each other their
stories hour after hour. They were not lonely anymore. They had
found and been found by their 100% perfect other. What a wonderful
thing it is to find and be found by your 100% perfect other. It's
a miracle, a cosmic miracle.
As they sat and talked, however, a tiny, tiny sliver of doubt took
root in their hearts: Was it really all right for one's dreams to
come true so easily?
And so, when there came a momentary lull in their conversation,
the boy said to the girl, "Let's test ourselves - just once.
If we really are each other's 100% perfect lovers, then sometime,
somewhere, we will meet again without fail. And when that happens,
and we know that we are the 100% perfect ones, we'll marry then
and there. What do you think?"
"Yes," she said, "that is exactly what we should
do."
And so they parted, she to the east, and he to the west.
The test they had agreed upon, however, was utterly unnecessary.
They should never have undertaken it, because they really and truly
were each other's 100% perfect lovers, and it was a miracle that
they had ever met. But it was impossible for them to know this,
young as they were. The cold, indifferent waves of fate proceeded
to toss them unmercifully.
One winter, both the boy and the girl came down with the season's
terrible inluenza, and after drifting for weeks between life and
death they lost all memory of their earlier years. When they awoke,
their heads were as empty as the young D. H. Lawrence's piggy bank.
They were two bright, determined young people, however, and through
their unremitting efforts they were able to acquire once again the
knowledge and feeling that qualified them to return as full-fledged
members of society. Heaven be praised, they became truly upstanding
citizens who knew how to transfer from one subway line to another,
who were fully capable of sending a special-delivery letter at the
post office. Indeed, they even experienced love again, sometimes
as much as 75% or even 85% love.
Time passed with shocking swiftness, and soon the boy was thirty-two,
the girl thirty.
One beautiful April morning, in search of a cup of coffee to start
the day, the boy was walking from west to east, while the girl,
intending to send a special-delivery letter, was walking from east
to west, but along the same narrow street in the Harajuku neighborhood
of Tokyo. They passed each other in the very center of the street.
The faintest gleam of their lost memories glimmered for the briefest
moment in their hearts. Each felt a rumbling in their chest. And
they knew:
She is the 100% perfect girl for me.
He is the 100% perfect boy for me.
But the glow of their memories was far too weak, and their thoughts
no longer had the clarity of fouteen years earlier. Without a word,
they passed each other, disappearing into the crowd. Forever.
A sad story, don't you think?
Yes, that's it, that is what I should have said to her.
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